Being Single – Part 1

This is my ninth month in Singledom and being single means:

1. Do grocery alone.
2. Watch movie alone.
3. Go out alone.
4. Eat alone.
5. Being alone.

I do not know when I have become so particular of being labelled as 'single' by others. It is not like I have not been a lone ranger before, i.e., when I was studying in NZ. But it feels very different this time round. Could it be because:

A. I've aged.
B. I've become sensitive to my surroundings, for e.g., how others perceive & judge me & etc.
C. I'm in Malaysia where being a lone soul is not an acceptable behaviour.
D. Everywhere I go I see couples, couples and couples only.
E. All of the above.

I don't know what is the answer. Really.

But what I do know is that, like everyone else, I do not like to be single.

No, CORRECTION, I don't like to be SEEN single because it makes me feel like a loser.

Pride is a hibernating monster inside me. I don't want to be seen single because a good looking girl like me (jeer all you want I don't care) is not supposed to be seen single when everyone else around me is happy pak-toring.

For many a times, I was tempted to go back to him because I don't want to be seen single. But deep inside me I know that it is not possible.

Three things that will never return are the past, the neglected opportunity and the spoken word.

Good memories are to be cherished (and NOT pursued). I can only sigh and move on with my life for he does not worth my love and time.

What about you?

Are you afraid of being single?

Are you clinging on to 'the one' with blind hope because you cannot handle Singledom? :)